Nov 30, 2004
Heyz.......today went down to slack once i came home from work.....slack with the same ppl as yesterday........but was boring coz always see the same faces........
So damn freaking happy........Today is the last day of work.....on Friday get my pay! ! ! ! !Three of the guys if i'm not mistaken juz saty right across me....but the best thing is that the brothers don't have to go to school........of all the unfairness in this fucked up world........hahaz
Tomorrow have to get down to some serious cleaning....got to clean my closet......but at least i will get to go down on time.........but i will have to kick my og out og the room tomorrow for the whole day......I think that i will be cleaning my room bit by bit coz to clean everything in 1 day would take hours.........i would rather die then to be cooped up in my roon for a few hours........ =P
Well got to go...........
wanna do something else besides blog all day long =P
BYEZ
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Nov 29, 2004
Heyz........have been very sickthis past couple of days....sore throat n all...thats why i have no mood for blogging.......Damn tiring......Don't have to work from wednesday onwards...........Today went down after work to slack.......At first when driving home that time already saw Nigel...Then saw this skinny guy....From behind look damn geeky coz got really short hair....Then whaen say him still thought that he looked like a geek but he tried to act tought although i still found him rather whimpy =P
Anywayz.....not much has been happening lately....juz went for Claras skating sompetition on Saturday....she skated quite well then she oso ask me to join skating with her...but sorry i've got no intrest in figure skating....maybe skating for lesuire is okay but not competetivly =P
Got to go
Byez
Posted at 08:14 am by S9135427F
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Nov 16, 2004
Y must i go to work today.............yesterday"s activity really made me tired........if i close my eyes now surely can go n sleep one.........relly want my water bed.......
Not much has been happening during these few days.....juz went to get a new pair of sandals n went to watch movie on saturday with claudia,martha n my sis. We went to watch taxi.......damn funny the show.........then they made me wear skirt lor...........then we went to take pics.................
Now in office all got nothing to do so then my mum ask me go use her com lor.......so now after abt an hour or so i am writing this lor.......my life damn boring lor...........juz go out n come home........the same thing everyday......plus i can't remember whatever is being said when i go out so i can't write things that i don't think is important......coz if its important or private then i won't want to write it here coz its part of my life that not many ppl knows abt lah................
GOT NOTHING TO WRITE ALREADY LAH....KAEZ...........BYEZ...........WHEN MY LIFE GETS MORE EXCITING THEN I WILL WRITE IN HERE KAEZ................
BYEZ
Posted at 11:34 am by S9135427F
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Nov 10, 2004
I'm back to my usual self already........Thankz so much to the ppl who i got to talk to when i was really really down..........n the amazing thing is that none of them were my family members.......=P
Anywayz......now work is not really stressing me out that much coz i ask my parents no to put me in the kitchen to do filing..........heyz......after all......life is never perfect.....there will alwayz be some flaw somewhere or another..........
So i've been trying to stay calm \by juz hanging out with my frenz.....my dad is telling my mum not to let me work coz its the end of the yr hoildays already n its my time to enjoy.....but my mum still thinks that it is a good idea to work so i won't be watching too much t.v................
So everyday i am at work then i go home to slack with my frenz then i go home n slack with my family then i watch t.v then i sleep........so its still a normal routine but with way less stress..........N i don't have to work on Saturdays n i have half days on thursdays coz of piano......My dayz away from the office n away from my family n hoe frenz.....r the days that i either spend alone so i have time to think........or with my other frenz where i can have fun and let lose............or when i can play the piano n write songs.......So right now i have a variety of things to do during my off dayz........heyz.....i don't work until 5 after all...coz i finish my work early.....i still can sleep or make an entry while i'm at work since i m not really a worker but juz a helper=P
So i stil get to do what i want todo but in moderation.Life is juz so much way more easier this way than it would ever have been.........But i am still really glad that i have a friend like jonathan coz i was actually able to talk or rather chat with him when i was really stressed.........thankz jonathan=P no need to blush kaez =P
At least i know that in this world not everyone doesn't have a heart.......everyone does but it depends if they want to show ppl if they have one or not.........
I am going swimming later.......so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =P
Well I seem to have run out of things to say
So until the nxt time i blog
Byez
Take care to everyone who has read this
Posted at 03:16 pm by S9135427F
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Nov 5, 2004
Heyz........back in office again making another entry........
I feel the need n urgency to really kill everyone whom i am damn pissed off with even though some of them r related to me n others r frenz.......after than i will kill myself very very slowly....starting my cuting one of my most important vein open n letting myself bleed dry while i bleed i shall cut way my skin slowly.........then start putting salt.....y the i would already be dead.............putting an end to all my pain n sufferings.........if not then i will juz OD......N DIE SLOWLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
jUZ THE THOUGHT OF KILLING BRIGHS SUCH JOY TO MY MIND......MAYBE I SHOULD REALLY DO THAT......AFTER ALL.......WHO IS REALLY GOING TO CARE OR NOTICE?????????ITS NOT LIKE ANYONE EVERY ACKNOWLADGE MY EXISTANCE..........I AM ALWAYS INVISIBLE TO EVERYONE......................MAYBE I SHOULD JUZ KILL ME MYSELF N I..............THAAT WOULD BE FUN.......WUOLDN'T IT???????
mAYBE I WILL GO THOUGH WITH THE PLAN WHEN I AM REALLLLLLLLLLLLLLYYYYYYY REALLLLLLLLLLY FREE.......N WHEN I'M ALONE.......NO ONE WILL TRY TO STOP ME:)HAhAhAhAZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
Posted at 04:20 pm by S9135427F
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Nov 2, 2004
So tired.Everyday work.N its only the 3rd day of my job.So boring....Haven't been bloging lately coz very busy...n my home computer spoil....So now i'm using the com in the office....coz now my parents r out.Work juz to buy a new handphone.....not fair.If can i would juz go n get a plan with it then i no longer have to use this crappy pre paid card.Spend a lot of money already lor.
Sooooo many students want to find a job...but i want to quit my job...so boring...then today oso the choir meeting is cancelled.I tell u a lot of ppl have no life...tell us we doing the pagent then now say no need...I already very busy...now everything turn upside down....I tell u really cannot cope with this kind of crappy things anymore lor.So irritating.I juz want to sleep n never have to wake up ever again.
Away from all the stress n the mayham of this stupid world.If only things weren't lilke this maybe then i would enjoy this stupid world....Write on paper so much that my hands r already very pain.N i only finished one file...still got another one to go.Have to take such long time juz to finish one stupid file.
The phone always ring...but then my mum don't like me to answer the phone when i am the one in school who does morning announcements.Haizzzzzz.....can die one lah...There is no way of satisfying this ppl....Tired already......
Until I get another chance like this...byez
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Oct 30, 2004
Finally my com can work..long time never blog.But its good lor.Sometime away from the com.Tomorrow start work so won't have much time to be on the com....at least i will be away from my irritating sister who never shuts up!!!!!Thank God for work!!!!!Have to go n let my sis use the com be4 she nags on my head....
Byez
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Oct 12, 2004
Haiz..............so sick....not enough rest n too many test...................................under a lot of pressure.I really need to get away from the busy life.....Why can't life juz be..........normal or at least less confusing....
Anyway,today I had my Maths exam....paper one I could not finish but paper 2 I could finish...but very scared that I fail my maths....wait my mum scold me like no tomorrow.....thank God my fren gave me the answers for question 8....if not wait I die........
Very angry oso...n frustrated.......I feel like I am surrounded by imbecils....Ppl who want to ignore me can't even do it politely.........how am I supposed to be kind to anyone???Is everyone this senseless???Y can't this world that we r living in juz make some sense???
Questions that r yet to be answered runs through everyone's mind day in n day out...ppl of high athority won't do anything to help with problems going 'round this sick sorrowful little world....Worst of all,ppl who r completly innocent has to take the rep too.Nothing else can be done with this ongoing suffering....this world was so damn dumb.....So many unanswered question.....y????????What so difficult abt answering qurstions that r burning ppls minds???
What is this world comming to???
Got to go
Byez
Posted at 03:30 pm by S9135427F
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Oct 11, 2004
HELP!!!!! I'm falliing Sick
Today very sad....Yesterday very tried but oso happy...Today sad coz my Geography paper cannot do until finish...never do last 2 questions.DaMn sad...at first I thought that it will be very easy coz when time not yet up I almost finish...but then once again I had to help my frenz so cannot complete on time.Die lor....In addition to that,when I came home I realised that I was sick...so now I'm sniffing a lot........can someone juz kill me???????????
Yesterday very tired coz close to whole day spend in church.Went for 10.30 am mass then 12.15 pm mass then Renay's dad gave me a lift home then rest for a while then take cab go for choir.Go for choir everyone get lecture coz a lot of ppl come late.But very happy coz after mass get to see SOMEONE....hahaz...........................................................................
At least he acknowladged me unlike a lot of other ppl...wanted to talk but his family over there so cannot...But at least still get to see him so....ok lor...den later sms him...
But I am still very tired n I can't breathe properly now so I better go.........
bYeZ
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