I love you so much but you'll never know how much i love you coz this will never be allowed...and i don't think that you'll ever feel the same way...you don't know who you are...many people may guess as much as they want...but no one will have the right answers...nothing in my life has ever been the same since you entered...nothing feels right anymore....so many things running through my mind....all about you...its like you are all i ever think of...every night and everyday...you fill my mind and cloud my vision...

I honestly wonder what's wrong with me right now........when i'm around ppl n talking a lot i'm damn happy...........but when i come home.........my mood juz drops.........its like damn crappy lor........

Valentines day is in.............3 weeks or something like that...............going to be staying at home coz its on a monday............n my class project to help the Tsunami victims is due on valentines day.......hahaz........its like damn fun........heart shaped cards and all.........n ice candy...........hahaz.........its gonna be damn fun selling it to like everyone......hahaz..........but i don't think that i can skip classes coz i'm like very very weak in all my subjects already......die......i don't even have my literature exercise book.....haven't buy yet..........no money already......hahaz

Today like......slack like crazy..........really had nothing to do............n i didn't even do my english homework.......better do my sunday if not i will get a heck of a scolding from my english teacher.....hahaz.........tired of typing already.....hahaz



Byez........hahaz........ciao......hahaz.......adios...........hahaz.......take care to anyone who is reading this.....hahaz

Damn tired........know that i haven't been updating.....no time although i'm usually online coz i only have that time to chat.......other than that i always have to be doing something else like my 2 slide presentations that must be ready by next week.......one for Writes Circle n another one for science.......so irritaing.....can juz like drop dead n die right now......i'm sure that know one will notice or care......but what the heck........hahaz

Been quite psycho lately.....hahaz.......school is like driving me up the wall..........have to read one 5oo+page book which would be no problem for claudia to read but for  me its damn difficult coz i can't read that fast n i can process the words that i read that fast...........hahaz.........ok

Don't think that there is much to talk about already.......




Byez.......hahaz....ciao......adios......hahaz........byez....enjoy whatever ur doing..hahaz......i'm psycho......hahaz

Heyz...........been very tired these past few days......Been bombarded with homework from my school teachers who are all psycho giving the homework deadline all the same as the rest.....Puting all of us under pressure which is really not needed.....Damn bored at school lor....then always never pay attention except during science coz i very weak in science already.....Better buck up if not i will get killed.....n i will drop to the worst class n get a heck of a scolding from my parents....hahaz.....y don't i juz kill myself.....that would save a lot of ppl the trouble......hahaz

So damn bored already.....now adays not much to do....always either busy at school or at home or with homework.....damn boring.....all damn routine already....barely have enough time to practise all my exam pieces....going to die if i can't get at least 2 songs right by this week......if not it will be damn bloody bad.....can die one if i cannot play 2 songs by nxt week....

Today had choir.....our choir was singing for the Tsunami mass......i walked to church using the long way lor......then walk up hill n al....damn bloody tired.....then reach choir practise late then samuel seow angy coz heidi never play properly.....n then the sops all never sit properly....especially some idiot.......then she is the one who keeps puting ppl down.....damn dumb lor she....but what the heck.....




Byez.....take care......adios.....ciao....hahaz.....byez

I'm so damn bloody tired of doing homework.....everyday i try to do my homework but then i have no concentration what so ever to do my homework.....juz wish that we diddn't have to go to school....juz stay at home n study via the computer or the internet.....

Juz came home from choir.....nothing to do....my parents n all inside their  own rooms already.....i'm the only one left outside.....haiz........which that i could juz kill myself.....my can't i??????I mean who's gonna miss me of even care that i don't exist????But what ever......see school is driving me up the wall that i'm already have suicidal thoughts in the begining of the yr......juz hope that the yr will go through quickly so that i can have another long holiday.....n i really hope that what i study actually registers into my mind......if not then i will be dead......really have to study very very hard this yr......my grades last yr really sucked....i mean 27 in level....thats damn bad......

Either way think that i should try to do my history summaries....if not my teacher will summarise my behavior to my mother....n then i will be in deep trouble.....can't afford that to happen coz then....i don't know what would happen....hahaz.........ok.....g2g


Byez........caio.....adios...till nxt time take care....hahaz......

Well since school has started i've been very very busy with school work n i've got crazy teachers! ! ! ! I'm drowning in my pool of homework....i know that i haven't been updating my blog lah but busy so i can't do much......so sad....hahaz

School has been damn boring that i can juz kill myself! ! ! ! All the lessons always put me to sleep especially science even though its one of my fave subject but the teacher is so damn bloody boring.......even if the lessons is the first peirod of the day i can still fall off to sleep....the worst is if the lessons is in the middle of the day coz i would already be exhaused by then...but then every afternoon when i come home i juz sit down at the computer n chat the whole day through....but then always never do my homework.....can die lah.........my homework can do till 12 midnight n still won't finish....i actually haven't do a lot of my homework already.....really have to catch up if not wait i really will fall behind......hahaz........okay enough abt school......

Okay now cannot talk on the phone that much already.....coz if not i won't have enough sleep then in the moring will get up late n then my whole day will be ruined......so chatting is my only escape...........okay lah...nothing else to write abt already........hahaz........






Byez.....take care......until nxt time ciao....hahaz......adios....hahaz.....